Wednesday, May 8, 2019

The illumination of Paul and us!


     I shared with 8 o’clocker’s it was a dangerous time for y’all to show up at church.  I was at Colloquium this past week and able to do some serious study.  To make matters worse, our lecturer focused us on the spirituality of some of the early Church fathers.  We were knee deep in the works of Origen, Evagrius, Maximus Confessor, Augustine, and others, so you know I was having a good time!  Too much study can lead to too long sermons.  I learned that lesson back in Ohio.  Too much study can also lead to lectures rather than sermons.  What was weird to me, though, even with all the study, was the sermon I had from early in the week stayed pretty much the same.  I got to read some commentary on the psalm, but no switch in sermon.  I read some Gospel commentaries, but no new sermon came to me.  I even did a bit of reading on Revelation this week wondering if I was ignoring it because of prior warnings by pastors I respect.  As you have figured out, I landed early in the week on Acts.  I landed on two particular points about the reading from Acts that did not change even after I spent some time reading commentaries on the book of Acts.  My issue, of course, was with the illustrations.  Thankfully, God was in the midst of that problem.  While I might have wished He’d point out the illustrations to use last Monday or Tuesday, He probably knew I’d be tempted not to use my time away for good study.  This way, He kept me working!
     Our story from Acts today is too well known.  It’s sometimes referred to as the conversion of Paul.  Having spent some time wrestling with the writings of experts, I’m sort of the mind that such is an unfair description of Paul’s experience.  It is not as if Paul was not zealous for God prior to this encounter with Jesus.  Rather, Paul’s mind was not fully illumined regarding the work and person of the Christ, Jesus of Nazareth, prior to this encounter.  Since it’s a blinding flash, literally, and an experience that causes Paul to re-evaluate what he has been taught, and it is the same God Whom he follows before and after the experience, I think I lean to the “Let’s call this the illumination of Paul” camp rather than the conversion of Paul camp.  Don’t groan, I told y’all I did some reading this week!
     The story is, as I said, well known.  Paul is zealous in his service of God and he is doing his absolute best to stamp out these folks trying to lead others in the Way of the Christ.  Paul held the cloaks and encouraged those who stoned Stephen to death, so this attitude should not surprise us.  He asks for and receives letters of authorization to stamp out these misleaders from among the Jewish communities in Damascus.  Along the road, there is a blinding flash, and a voice speaks to Paul.  Paul asks who it is that speaks and learns it is non other than Jesus.  Jesus instructs Paul to get up and go to the city.  There, he will learn what it is he is called to do.
     I will add here, of course, that Paul’s reputation precedes his arrival.  When Jesus instructs Ananias to pray for Paul, Ananias is understandably resistant.  Paul’s reputation as one fighting the early followers of The Way, precedes him.  Ananias obeys Jesus when He instructs him, but He does not do so without misgivings or even wondering if his Lord was sure about the instructions.  That’s a sermon for another passage and another day, though.
     The story is well known.  Y’all have been nodding and following along well.  I wonder, though, if it is not too well known and too common that we skim it rather than pay attention to significance to us.  Specifically, we are in the season of Easter.  The alleluias are in all the hymns.  Our focus has shifted from self-examinations of our sins and our need for a Savior to contemplating the impact of the Resurrection on our life.  To use the language of one of my colleagues this past week, we are no longer flogging ourselves for being the miserable wretches or sinners that we are.  That work, though, has been replaced by the consideration of the Resurrection of Christ.  What does it mean to you and to me if that Tomb was empty?  Our reading on Paul’s story gives us one significant reminder.
     What does Jesus say to Paul?  Why do you persecute Me?  As your nods and expressions have indicated, you know this story well.  Nearly everyone knew Paul held the cloaks of those stoning Stephen to death.  Nearly everyone seems to know that Paul was zealous in his defense of the torah, the Temple, and even Yahweh.  How does Jesus treat that persecution of those who first turned to Him?  That’s right!  Jesus tells Paul, and us, that his persecution of them is a persecution of Him!  Stoning Stephen was a stoning of Him.  Placing them in jail was placing Him in jail.  Flogging them was flogging Him.  Mocking them was mocking Him.  I understand Paul hears this in ways we do not.  Paul has got this horrible pastoral problem that he is meeting the supposed blasphemer who was hung on a tree after His death.  Our minds do not need the re-ordering of Paul.  Presumably, all of us present already believe Jesus was raised from the dead.  We publicly affirmed it, after all, at our baptisms and confirmations, and we have reaffirmed it at every baptism and confirmation we have attended since.  We remind ourselves of His Resurrection every time we say the creeds.  We are, to use my earlier language, already illumined in some ways about the Resurrection.  That we are celebrating that Resurrection 2000 years later and some 6000 miles distant is in its own way a testimony to our belief in the Resurrection.  But do we plumb the depths of its importance to us?  Sure, most of us, when pressed, will tell others we expect to be raised from the dead.  Some of us who really think of such things, will wrestle with questions of whether it’s really bodily and, if so, which body.  Y’all are laughing, but some of you have told me you hope it’s your body of a certain age, while others hope they get one way different.  That latter desire then worries them that others may not know them in the next life.
     What about today?  What does Jesus question of Paul remind us about the significance of the Resurrection to us in this day and in this place?  Think back to your baptism, or the baptismal rite which was used in your infancy.  What happened?  You were baptized into His death and promised eternal life, right?  Whether you did the liturgical baptism and confirmation path or you did the “believer’s” baptism path, you were bound to God.  Bound.  A covenant was made by God regarding each one of you and me.  We promised to follow and obey God, recognizing our actions would either honor or dishonor Him in the world around us.  When we dishonor Him, by sinning, we promised to repent and try again.  That’s all familiar, right?  Right?
     What about the oath made by God?  What does He promise those baptized into the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit?  Certainly, new life is one of those promises.  Yes, that we will be resurrected, too, is a promise.  But what about Jesus’ question of Paul today?  In our baptisms, God reminds us that He is bound to us, just as we are bound to Him.  When we are dishonored, He is dishonored.  When we suffer, He suffers.  When we are mocked and ridiculed, He is mocked and ridiculed.  It’s that binding, brothers and sisters, that allows us to give up our need for vengeance.  God has promised that He suffers with us and that He will avenge!  In the end, you and I and all who call upon His name will be, what, called to share in His glory for all eternity!  We will be shown to have chosen wisely, to use the words of Indiana Jones.  We will be shown to having repented of our sins and redeemed by His Son our Lord.
     Do we live as if we truly believe in that binding covenant we profess every time we remind ourselves of His covenant?  Are we hesitant to speak His words and wisdom into conversations with friends and families and co-workers because we don’t want to be seen as a “Jesus freak?”  Our we miserly when it comes to those resources which He has given us to steward for fear we might make bad decisions, might be taken advantage of, or might be being conned, thereby limiting the resources available to us and to a God we claim created all things?  Do we really live as if we believe that when we are mocked for our faith, He is mocked; if we are excluded because of our faith, He is excluded; if we are ripped off because we are doing the things He commanded, He is the real victim of the thief or grifter?
     I am guessing by your expressions now, though I knew it when this sermon appeared in my head on Monday, we give such examination short shrift.  We maybe try hard to focus on our obligations to Him, but we do not spend much time considering the way He has chosen to bind Himself to us.  Yet here we are all, reading Luke’s narrative regarding Paul’s illumination.  Jesus treats the persecutions of Paul as if they were done to Him.  It’s part of the reason when we gather each time for the Eucharist that we remind ourselves that in receiving His Body and Blood we are made one body with Him, that He may dwell in us, and we in Him!  One of the truths supported by the Resurrection is the promise that He is with us always.  When we suffer for Him, He suffers; when we are glorified for our obedient work to Him, He is glorified.  When we are persecuted, He is persecuted!  It’s an amazing truth!  It’s incredibly freeing!  We can do whatever God is calling us to do confident, absolutely confident, of its importance and that we are the ones for that particular work at that particular time.  No matter the odds, He wins; and thus we share in His victory!  It may not work the way we expect or hope, but we can be confident it will, because He will.
     That truth leads me to the other teaching of the week.  This one you may have heard before, but I am certain we need to hear it again.  There is no limit to what God can accomplish through the obedient faith of one person.  That you and I sit here today in modern Nashville is yet testimony to Paul’s eventual obedience.  God took all of Paul’s characteristics and molded him into an incredible witness or ambassador.  God used Paul’s privilege as a Roman citizen to speak into the ears of the ANE powerful and privileged.  God used Paul’s rabbinicly trained mind to reach the philosophers and sophists of the Greek culture.  God used Paul’s zealous nature to work constantly for the spread of the Gospel.  The truth is, the importance of one faithful obedient servant can never be overstated.
     This is where I struggled with a sermon illustration.  My temptation was to share the fight against slavery, but it felt wrong, even when I was focusing on the stories of others who have taught me in that fight.  But God is always faithful, even in little things like sermons.
     A few weeks ago, I was invited to meet the general who tapped Nathan as one of those men who might one day succeed him protecting this country.  Many of you already know this from other forums, and it will be limited in the printed version for obvious reasons, but this particular general, having been alerted about Nathan thanks to a colonel, decided to recruit Nathan for some special work.  And Nathan jumped at the opportunity.  Mom and Dad, of course, were worried.  In addition to the normal fears of parents in that situation, we both wondered at the emotional and spiritual burden that could be placed upon our son.  That line of work places demands on human beings that human beings are not supposed to experience.  If Nathan follows this path and is successful, he will see things neither I nor Karen want him to see, he will do things neither of us want him to do.  And here was a general recruiting Nathan, encouraging Nathan, then only a teenager, that he was the perfect tool for this work.
     Anyway, the general was going to be in town speaking at a Church of Christ church.  This would be a good opportunity for us to meet face to face.  He could get to know me better and I him.  Besides, he was not sure how many people would turn out for the event.  If nobody came, we could have a long private conversation.  It turns out the event was at a non-denom church this past Friday.  I and only 2000 of my closest brothers in Christ showed up on a Friday night to hear the general speak.  Can you imagine getting 2000 men to show up at anything Christian on a Friday night?  I learned later they consider themselves warriors for Christ, so the high attendance makes sense.
     In truth, I was a bit disappointed at the high turnout.  I had really hoped to spend some time one on one with him.  I have friends, clergy friends and former parishioners, who . . . still suffer the effects of this kind of work.  In all the dreams for my son’s life, this was not in my top anything list.  The general began to give his testimony.  He shared some stories of God’s redemptive work in his life.  He spoke rather in terms of God’s miraculous hand.  And I found myself in that weird place where I had heard several of his stories, but from a more, for lack of a better word, secular perspective.
     His second or third story to the group was about a failed attempt to rescue forcefully the American hostages in the Iranian embassy.  As he shared his side of the story, I was a college kid again, sitting in a Morton classroom one evening, listening to another general’s version of these events only after we had put our pens and pencils down.  As he shared another story of Somalia, I was drinking a beer and playing cards with another colleague, who, at the time, shared his night terrors surrounding those same events and even the same guilt regarding the deaths of others.  With only one exception, I had heard each of his stories from another witness.  In each of those stories, they had expressed how lucky they had been or how crazy it had been that events did not turn out why they should.  And here was God’s version of Paul Harvey with the “rest of the story.”
     Though the words were different, even the deaf could have heard God’s reminder to me.  Even in those places where angels should not tread, He is at work.  In those places and in those times where we think Him to be the most removed, He is still redeeming.  And it is often the obedient faith of one glorious son or daughter who is identified by others as the mouthpiece through whom He speaks.  That God could use an event like that to give me some peace that I did not know I needed would be enough for most of us.  In truth, it was enough for me.  But God was not done.  When we remind ourselves that He does more than we can ask or imagine, they are not empty words.  They should be a statement of our faith.
     After the lecture and concert, I chatted with the general.  I shared briefly that I was in a much different place than before his speech.  We chatted about what I knew about his stories but, more importantly, what those folks had shared about those stories.  And I confessed it had been a good spiritual wedgie for me because I had not reconsidered those stories in light of my faith and post-ordination, where it became my professional job to share with others where God was at work in the world around us.  That provoked other conversations and stories which were interrupted by others and have no part in this teaching.
     Rather, it was the interruptions that are part of this teaching.  This general had spent time sharing some amazing stories of God’s redemptive work in the world to a lot of men.  As we were first speaking, he looked over my should and said “here come the “yabuts.”  It took a couple soldiers and sailors for me to realize he meant “yeah, but . . . “.  Quite a number of individual servicemen came up to him after the event to thank him.  He thanked each one for their service, and they reciprocated.  More than one marine threatened him good-naturedly about the jokes he told at their expense.  But then came the serious work.  Nearly every soldier expressed a version of “Generally, I hear you.  I know you believe God wants us all to serve Him, and that He will forgive us, but you have no idea what I’ve done.”
     Let me say first and foremost, Jerry was the perfect pastor in all this.  For some of these men he listened a bit to their excuses.  For some, though, he cut them off.  Each response to their “yeah, but” went something along the lines of “yes.  I do know what you did because I likely did it, too.  They call war hell for a reason young man.  It’s part of the fall; it’s evil.  But remember this: men like me ordered you into those situations.  We ordered you into those times and spaces and events which convince you that you are beyond God’s saving embrace.  Each of us carries that guilt, and the guilt of being the one who sent too many others to their deaths.”
     As he said a couple times, he’s old and not much into soft-peddling any more, if he ever was.  It was a perspective and truth, though, those soldiers and sailors needed to hear, each and every one of them, as the evening wore on in Middle Tennessee.  Nobody, me included, would not have blamed Jerry if he slipped out to visit with family.  Instead, he greeted each one of those “yeah buts” with an even greater truth, the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  And he spoke in a voice that had seen what they had seen, done what they had done, and with the authority of a commanding officer, and the conviction of one who is redeemed!  And in that same voice, and in the same understanding, he shared the certainty of his faith that God wanted nothing more than to redeem their suffering, too.
     I share that part of the story after a day full of my own reflection for your consideration.  Which do you think was more amazing?  Are you more blown away by the fact that God used the faith of a young soldier to help be His mouthpiece, His witness, in some of the darkest battlefields on earth?  Or do you think it was that same faithful servant’s willingness to speak to others individually of that redeeming grace of God?  Or are you more impressed by the impact his words had on a professional Christian you call your priest?  Was it the reweaving of stories and events that I knew already?  Was it the willingness of a public servant to risk the mocking and derisive snorts?  Maybe you find something else far more amazing, far more wonderful.  But isn’t that, too, part of how God works, amazing us how we, individually, need to be amazed, reaching out to us in the way we each need to be reached!
     God is asking of you the same obedience he asked of Paul 2000 years ago and Jerry just a couple generations ago.  We have all the same “yeah but’s” that He has heard since the days of Adam and Eve.  Still, He has chosen each one of us to be a vessel of His grace in this generation.  Yes, the story of salvation history is amazing, but God thought it would be more amazing to others if it included you.  In our day, in our time, and in our place, He is asking each one of us to do the work He has given us to do, that the story of salvation and redemptive history might be made even more beautiful by those who are drawn to His saving embrace by our faithful obedience to His loving call on both our own lives and theirs!

In Christ’s Peace,
Brian†

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